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July 19, 2022
We are currently working on a new song. The melody popped into my head on the bike, as it often happens. I like it very much. It hops playfully through gorges and valleys like a young chamois. I already have some ideas for lyrics. It will be about a feeling that I've been carrying around inside me all my life. But the right words don't wanna come to me yet.
Actually I would need Leo for writing the lyrics. But she is not in the right mood - to say the least. I told her about my dreams, but her reaction was curt. 'And what are you trying to tell me?' I replied that I simply wanted her opinion on the matter. That's when she just said, 'Oh, leave me alone with your sick shit.'
Later, in rehearsal, she was obnoxious. She told Till he played the guitar like a baby. My silly croaking hurt her ears. And anyway, it just pisses her off how everyone seems to celebrate themselves, even though we're just a bunch of pathetic losers. She knows exactly where to poke to make it hurt. Eventually, Jin lost it and just threw her out. Leo left. We were left with the four of us and our inspiration gone.
I was sure that Leo would disappear once again after this incident. But much to my surprise, I saw her later in the cherry tree. She was sitting there with a knife, cutting off all the green, leaf after leaf. I wanted to go and talk to her. But then it occurred to me that maybe it would be better if the cherry tree got to feel her mood and not me. And looking at the tree - or what's left of it - that was probably a good idea