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June 04, 2022

I have introduced all the members of 'The Holy Lonliness Collective', even our manager. Only about myself I have not written anything. A few times I tried, but I must confess that it´s difficult for me. My sincere admiration belongs to all those artists who produce self-portraits or autobiographies. How do you do that, step out of your body and see yourself through the eyes of others? It is a mystery to me. I was urged by others to try anyway. Well then... don't be too hard on me.

When I wake up in the morning, it still seems like an absurd dream that I should be the singer and songwriter of a real band. It's a role I never saw myself in and honestly still don't to this day. Actually, my idea was that Jin would sing. It would have been perfectly fine for me to just pluck the acoustic guitar every now and then. Or even just be a songwriter and lyricist and let the others take the stage. But Jin wouldn't. Said those were my lyrics and they had to be sung by me. And that my voice isn't as thin and lost as it seems to me, anyway.

That all sounds pretty timid, and I suppose that depicts a part of my inner life pretty accurately. On the other hand, I am aware of what a privilege it is to make music together with such great artists. When Jin's soulful piano chords meet Hans' intricate rhythms and Till's laconic guitar playing, something magical happens. Being able to lend my voice to this music makes me truly happy. Since our first rehearsal, I have definitely caught fire. I would love to never do anything else again. On a good day, the euphoria is big enough to suffocate the doubts. And then, I think, I'm actually doing a pretty good job

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