Discover more from The Holy Loneliness Collective (english)
Sept 27, 2022
There may not be many things I'm good at. I am often the last one to realize stuff. But if there is one thing I am good at, it is this: I can tell when people are in love. Usually long before they know it themselves. I think it's because I am kind of allergic to human flirting behavior. When loud, bad jokes are cracked (that only one person is supposed to laugh about), when intense eye contact is sought, when the appropriate spatial distance is deliberately undercut again and again in order to test how far one can go, then it's hard for me to bear. Everything inside me tightens somewhere around my diaphragm and it's better if I leave the room.
That's why it's nothing new to me that Till has acquired a liking for Leo. It's not particularly surprising either. When Till sees a beautiful woman, he tries his luck. However, I thought he would have given up by now due to the demonstrative coldness Leo shows in letting his wooing come to nothing. But recently Leo wanted to visit the Oktoberfest. No one would go with her, except for Till. And something seems to have happened there. After the last rehearsal, the two of them stayed longer because Till wanted to show Leo a few guitar chords. And right now they are in the fireplace room and Leo is cutting his hair. I preferred to freeze up here in my room, then.
I don't know what made Leo change her mind. But I don't see anything good coming. Actually, it would be fair to warn Till. But it's not really my place, is it? On the other hand, just getting out the popcorn and watching the drama unfold is hard for me, either. Both are too close to me for that. Or maybe I'm just too negative...